I’m going to the barber in about 2 hours, and I am antsy about the whole thing, I have had hair struggles since I have been 10 I have been dealing with and fighting Trichotillomania, which is classified as an impulse control disorder by DSM-IV, is the compulsive urge to pull out one’s own hair leading to noticeable hair loss, distress, and social or functional impairment.
I have worn wigs from the age of 18-30 and since 30 I have had it under a reasonable amount of control, I have had my head shaved and a Mohawk in the past few years to keep it under better control from pulling or dealing with spots I have created. But the Winter time is always the hardest, I spend too much time indoors and sometimes yes in front of the tv, and I go into a trance like state and just pull out of seeking relaxation.
I’m not perfect, and it’s partly why I model, and partly why you see me in so many wigs, I have woven my lemons into part of my exhibition.
I have done a real bang up job this winter on my hair, actually it’s been a bad year all together since last spring stress wise. So today I go in and see what my lady barber can do with what I got left, sometimes I wait too long out of shame, and disappointment, Like I know she’s not going to be mad that I made all these bald spots, but I hate making her job hard, and I guess I just get disappointed in myself, and read it on other people as a reflection.
So today my options are
Shave it all off and start over.
An asymmetrical Thompson twins 80’s new wave type of style shaved on one side.
I just needed to vent that and stop carrying it around on the inside.
No matter what you know there will be pics to come, cuz I can’t help myself.